Friday, December 18, 2009

The name Baron means....?

The name Baron was one of those names that I thought about for several days before ever bringing it up with Brad. We were so set on Ben for our boy name I didn't want Brad to think I wasn't completely sold...sooo....we were driving on the highway one Saturday and I asked him, "honey what do you think about the name Baron?" Brad immediately loved it. When we got home we looked up the meaning of Baron.

Baron means: noble man

I got so excited because that morning I had just read Isaiah 32:8 "For he who is noble plans noble things, and on noble things he stands." From this verse the commentary said "Isaiah foresees a kingdom of true human nobility, by the grace of God. Those who have the powerful position of "nobles" should aim at true nobility by planning ways to bring good to others and to advance the kingdom of God on Earth."

From the beginning of finding out we were pregnant we have prayed this prayer over our child. We pray to grow him up in a way that brings His name and His kingdom glory by His mercy and grace.

The name had a special meaning for us and that's why we chose it! Brad loves calling him Bear! :)

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Birth Story

Sadly, this is the shortened version.

This time last week I experienced the power and strength of our Holy Spirit more than ever before. It was a day where intense pain was met with greater joy and I am forever grateful for the privilege that was given to me to give birth.

Tuesday, December 1st started off the same as the day before, and the day before that, and the day before that, contractions and discomfort...really...about 2 to 3 weeks before this day I was having contractions that had me thinking the baby was coming. We woke up, got Brad off to work and had our same conversation about what to do if it was "go time" with the anticipation that "today would be the day." We prayed, as we had for weeks, "Lord, forgive our weakness and lack of trust in you; give the us the strength and endurance to get through this day. Be our hope" ... and then I would read Jeremiah 17:7 "Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust IS the Lord."

I headed out to meet a friend for breakfast, then went to see my friend/chiropractor for an adjustment and acupuncture. At this point I was feeling "different" and unsure if I should run by the birth center to let my mid-wife, Jean, check me. My friend encouraged me to go ease my mind and just see what was going on. The words I would hear next from Jean were words I had been longing to hear for weeks..."you're gunna have a baby today!" These words were said through tearful eyes and me questioning "are you sure?...how do you know?...really?...PRAISE THE LORD!!" At this point it was 11:45 and she predicted a baby by 6pm. I didn't think it would be that quick because I didn't feel that bad. She sent me home and told me she would check on me in an hour or so and to call her if it went faster. Brad got the call along with my mom and they were soon with me at the house and active labor started kicking in around 1pm. At this point, I wanted to get focused but knew I was going to have a lot of guests in my home so I felt the need to bake some cookies and get coffee going for everyone coming over. It helped to take my mind off the earlier stage of labor...but it didn't help for long.

They kept getting stronger and harder so I settled on my exercise ball in my bedroom, headphones on with Shawn McDonald pandora playing on my phone. I spent a good hour or 2 rocking, singing, and focusing on the Lord, and the strength He would give me to get through. It was amazing how near He was to me. With every contraction I told myself the next one would be harder and stronger; "relax, let go, this baby is coming soon..." It was amazing how this got me through. Brad was so amazing through it all! He would encourage me with each contraction that "I would never have to do that one again," and that "I was one step closer to meeting our baby." He was so strong and stable. When Jean and Lynn arrived it was a huge relief as well, their presence instantly calmed me. At this point I was on all fours on my bed, burying my head in my pillows with each surge. It wasn't long before I knew "my hour had come." (John 16:21) Wow! There is no feeling like it! I felt so strong but so weak at the same time. I pushed for about 45 minutes and at 5:14pm the words..."it's our son" cried from Brad. It was done! My prize won, sweet Baron was here! He just nuzzled on my chest and I couldn't believe how instant my connection was with him. I felt like I already knew everything about him.

My mom and Brad's mom were able to see their grandson come into this world and right after he was born my sisters joined us in the bedroom to celebrate. It was such a joyous time! Brad kept saying "this is the happiest I've ever been...I want to do it again tomorrow!" I just laughed at that thought...as you can imagine, pushing out an almost 10 pounder is not something I'd want to do on a daily basis, I don't care how happy it made Brad! :)

The day went just as we had prayed...the Lord's will was done. He was gracious and blessed us with a healthy baby, a text book labor and delivery, and the blessing of being at home on a cold, wintry day. What a day! What a week! What a joy it is to be a mom!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Baron Bradley

Just a few pics of when Baron came into this world;)! Updates to come...






Monday, October 26, 2009

We are so loved!

My sisters and Aunt threw me the most beautiful shower for all my closest friends. What a blessing it was to have all of you there to celebrate with us in this new little life. We are so thankful to have each of you in our lives and I will never forget how special this day was for me! Here are a few pictures from the morning- wish I had more of everyone who was there!









Monday, September 21, 2009

Few More Months

Just a couple more months until we get to meet our new baby! Brad and I got the crib put together this weekend (thanks to Nana and Pop for the crib) and it was very surreal for both of us. They sure make those cribs big for such little people! ;) Brad's mom also ordered us the bedding so I was able to get that all set up too. The Lord has been so gracious to us through this little life. We have also decided on names! Yay! If we have a girl her name will be June Rylee and if it's a boy his name will be Baron Bradley. It's hard sometimes to be patient in waiting on if I have a June or a Baron inside but I can't wait for the moment when I hear Brad's voice say to me..."it's our daughter" or "it's our son!" What a moment I look forward to. The Lord has already used this baby to renew our spirits and challenge our faith in so many ways.
Psalm 103:1 Bless the Lord, oh my soul; and all that is within me, bless His Holy Name.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

First post from Brad

Isaiah 40:10-11: "Behold, the Lord God comes with might...He will tend His flock like a shepherd; He will gather the lambs in His arms; He will carry them in His bosom."

I spent the afternoon with my dad today. He is paralyzed from the chest down and cannot move on his own past his elbows. No hand, waist, or leg function. He is completely dependant on others to do almost anything. When I arrived, it was time to move him from his bed to his motorized chair. To do this, we use a mechanical arm lift. First we roll him to one side and place his body sling underneath one of his sides while on the bed. Then we roll him to the other side and pull the sling the rest of the way around. From here, we put the mechanical arm lift over him and attach the 5 parts of the body sling to the hooks. Now it's time to lift his entire body out from the bed into the air so he can be moved over to his chair.

As the electric arm smoothly and effortlessly lifts my dad's body into the air, I am struck by the image of my adult father being helplessly suspended in a wrapped position. He can't move anything on his body yet he is being held in the air, completely safe and controlled. I get the picture here.

I'm moved by the image of each one of God's children, every single one of us, crippled. Helpless. Unable to move or help our selves in any way. Dead. Then the Father's arms, with intent, rich, agressive love, reach down. "Behold, the Lord God comes with might"! Nothing will stop our great God from His work of saving us. Then He reaches His arms and hands around us, gracefully drawing us in to Himself. "He will gather the lambs in His arms; He will carry them in His bosom". Here, in His bosom, we are saved.

Seeing my dad suspended there, his body limp and his own strength gone, is hard. It's something you don't ever expect or even imagine you will see as a son or daughter. But God is glorified! In our weakness He is truly magnified! I cherish our God who is a God full of love to the point of suffering and dying just for the right to reach down and lift up our crippled, helpless bodies from death and draw us into His chest and say with joy "You're mine!". Zephaniah 3:17: "The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you by His love; He will exult over you with loud singing."

But the King of Kings doesn't stop there. "...they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary..." Isaiah 40:31. You see, my dad knows he will walk again. He will run! He will mount up with wings by the Lord's hands. He's being carried right now! My God is painstakingly caring for him, bearing him up in His arms. And my God has made a promise to my dad and to me and to you. Through His Son we are no longer crippled, hopeless, dead. We will reign with the King. My dad will be made whole again, so much better than before that God will be glorified for eternity in my dad's new body.

You and I may be able to walk. We may be able to eat, drink, change, make a phone call, send an e-mail, earn a living... Things my dad can't do any more. But make no mistake. We are all crippled in our flesh. My dad had 50 years of walking ability. Perhaps, Lord willing, I might have more. Maybe 60, or 70, maybe 80 or 90? Not much more. Is that really that much more "time"? Our bodies are failing, some faster than others. Some more acutely than others. Before we know it, if we aren't chasing our Savior, our loving King, we might just chase our own tale until that blink of an eye we call life is finished.

God you are honored and glorified through the weakness of myself. Open my eyes Lord to see beyond my own two feet! We look to you God for true purpose and wisdom. We look to you great God to use us for your honor and glory. If that be pain, suffering and loss, Father give us the strength to bear it for your name's sake. You will be glorified and we would have it no other way. Praise His name.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Beach Camp w/ The Village Youth